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Baby Come Back

A memoir by a mother whose child prepares for college



MOTHER NATURE, AS THE NAME IMPLIES, IS UNPREDICTABLE. She gives you an amazing miracle in the form of the sweetest baby the world has ever seen. In the first instant of that little life, your heart opens wide and your child crawls inside and takes up residence there. Minutes, hours, years go by. He/she thrums away in your heart, coloring your every move, every decision and every emotion. You get used to that thrumming; it becomes part of you. You watch all your child’s firsts with love and pride-filled eyes. You don’t react with the terror that grips you when they take their first tumble; instead, you smile, suppress the urge to lunge for them, and encourage them to get up and go on their way. And because they didn’t see the fear in your heart, they do just that; get up and go on their way. That’s only one of the many times you do that for them, but it pales in comparison to what is required when they go away to college.

As long as they are in the house, underfoot, you feel their place in your heart is still fully occupied. You don’t think twice as you enthusiastically jump into the car and drive hundreds of miles to walk campus after campus to help your child find the right school. You hold your thoughts inside, size him/her up out of the corner of your eye and hope that on the long drive home, they give you some inkling of their thoughts. All the while, they are still with you. They still need you to buy milk, help them sort out a problem with a teacher, and sometimes they might even want to watch a movie with you.

Then, the colleges are chosen, the applications are mailed off, and the acceptance letters come in. Before you know it, you’re writing out the check that assures your child’s admittance into the college of their choice. You shop for clothes. You buy special linens to fit the dorm-room bed, and you  imagine the proud day when you’ll drive them to school to get settled into their new life.

And this is when Mother Nature plays her dirty trick.

Being the brave mother you are, you wave goodbye, and not looking back, drive home to a place you don’t recognize. Everything is where it was but there’s a quiet you’ve never experienced before. You and the family dog stand and stare at the now clean room that until a few days ago was a smelly sty so dense with teenage detritus you couldn’t even enter. And you remember your child sitting in the midst, happily ensconced in the cacophony of video game monsters being killed, rock music, and IM dings from the computer.

This new quiet is positively deafening.

Dear old Mother Nature doesn’t prepare you for the cold, harsh emptiness of the empty nest. Your child is still thrumming away in your heart but there’s nothing for you to do. You try and turn your mind away, but thoughts of them keep creeping back in. Will they remember to brush their teeth, do their laundry, or even at least once, change those specially bought sheets? Mother Nature gives them to you and then, just like that, takes them away. You spend their entire existence holding on to them for dear life and now you’re supposed to let them go? It’s impossible. Yet, as you stand disoriented in the middle of your new old home, it finally hits you; letting them go is probably the biggest gesture of love you’ll ever make. Now you just have to figure
out how to quiet the thrumming in your heart.

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March 2017

The Norwalk Historical Society is hosting a Family FUNday in celebration of Women's History Month. Local storyteller, Dr. Darla Shaw, will weave historical tales about Alice Paul, a courageous...

Cost: $3 per person, maximum $15 per family

Where:
Norwalk Historical Society Museum
125 East Ave.
Entrance and Parking at Norwalk City Hall Parking
Norwalk, CT  06851
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Sponsor: Norwalk Historical Society
Telephone: 203-846-0525
Contact Name: Samantha Kulish
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Get creative with the entire family at Westport Arts Center’s Family Art Day: Create Your Family’s Modern Crest on Sunday, March 26 from 1 to 3 p.m.  The Arts Center’s...

Cost: $10 per child/Adults and children under 2 years old are free

Where:
Westport Arts Center
51 Riverside Avenue
Westport, CT  06880
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Cost: $40

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Painting with a Twist
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Westport, CT  06880
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Telephone: 203-292-1518
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Through Our Eyes V A 5th Annual New Canaan High School Exhibition at the Carriage Barn Arts Center. On view from March 10th to April 1st 2017.  Opening reception is on March 10th, 5...

Cost: Free

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681 South Ave
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Telephone: 203-324-6584
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Cost: Free

Where:
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681 South Ave
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Cost: Free

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Maritime Garage Gallery
11 North Water Street
Norwalk, CT  06854
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Sponsor: Norwalk Parking Authority
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Sponsor: SilverSource
Telephone: 203-324-6584
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Cost: Free

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681 South Ave
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Telephone: 203-324-6584
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Cost: $10 per New Pond Farm member, $15 per non-member

Where:
New Pond Farm Education Center
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Telephone: (203) 938-2117
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Telephone: 203-324-6584
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Cost: fre

Where:
Wilton Library
137 Old Ridgefield Road, Wilton
Wilton, CT  06897
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Sponsor: Wilton Library
Telephone: 203-762-3950
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Cost: Free

Where:
Carriage Barn Arts Center
681 South Ave
Waveny Park
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Cost: Free

Where:
Maritime Garage Gallery
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Cost: Free

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66 Elm Street
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Sponsor: Heather Gaudio Fine Art
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Sponsor: SilverSource
Telephone: 203-324-6584
Contact Name: Linda Christensen
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Cost: Free

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Carriage Barn Arts Center
681 South Ave
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Cost: 75

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13 Oenoke Ridge
New Canaan, CT  06840
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Sponsor: The New Canaan Historical Society
Telephone: 203-966-1776
Contact Name: Donna Dearth
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Cost: $50

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1800 E. Putnam Avenue
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Sponsor: Pacific House
Telephone: 917-563-2435
Contact Name: Sloane Spanierman
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Cost: Free

Where:
Grace Farms
365 Lukes Wood Road
New Canaan, CT  06840
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Sponsor: Grace Farms Foundation
Telephone: 203-920-1702
Contact Name: Regan Hayes
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Cost: Free

Where:
Maritime Garage Gallery
11 North Water Street
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Sponsor: Norwalk Parking Authority
Telephone: 203-831-9063
Contact Name: Maritime Garage Gallery
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Cost: Free

Where:
Heather Gaudio Fine Art
66 Elm Street
New Canaan, CT  06840
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Sponsor: Heather Gaudio Fine Art
Telephone: (2030801-9590
Contact Name: Rachael Palacios
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Cost: FREE

Where:
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Sponsor: SilverSource
Telephone: 203-324-6584
Contact Name: Linda Christensen
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Cost: Free

Where:
Pound Ridge Library
271 Westchester Avenue
Pound Ridge, NY  10576
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Sponsor: Pound Ridge Library
Telephone: 914-764-5085
Contact Name: Pound Ridge Library
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Cost: Free

Where:
Heather Gaudio Fine Art
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Sponsor: Heather Gaudio Fine Art
Telephone: (2030801-9590
Contact Name: Rachael Palacios
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Join talented artist and New Pond Farm member, Chanel Dupare, as she shares this traditional Ukrainian craft. Using a wax-resist dyeing method you will learn this delicate meditative art of Pysanky...

Cost: $15 per New Pond Farm Member, $20 per non-member

Where:
New Pond Farm Education Center
101 Marchant Road
Redding, CT  06896
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Telephone: (203) 938-2117
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Saturday April 1, 2:30 – 4:30 p.m. 
  Join talented artist and NPF member, Chanel Dupare, as she shares this traditional Ukrainian craft. Using a wax resist
dyeing method you will learn...

Cost: $15 per New Pond Farm Member child, $20 per non-member child

Where:
New Pond Farm Education Center
101 Marchant Road
Redding, CT  06896
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Telephone: (203) 938-2117
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Cost: Free

Where:
Carriage Barn Arts Center
681 South Ave
Waveny Park
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Website »

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Saturday, April 1 Annual Spring Benefit - An Evening to Support Wilton Library -- 7pm to 11pm at Silver Spring Country Club, Ridgefield. Wilton Library will hold its annual spring fundraiser at...

Cost: $200 per ticket

Where:
Silver Spring Country Club
439 Silver Spring Rd, Ridgefield, CT 06877
Ridgefield, CT  06877
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Sponsor: Wilton Library
Telephone: 120-376-23950
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